LETS leave silently !!!

 i feel empty at times , though its my choice to be now like aghost in this house however i feel i am unwanted here , i just dont want to put efforts in any relationship. its amazing to see how the person who abused is living a best life and everyone thinks i am the one who is crazy. i guess i dont belong here anymore. i dont want to exist in their life because it doesnt matter anymore whether i live or donti will always be seen as the trouble maker. but may be i am not good enough, is it good idea to blame myself only, noone is in support to understnad myside and if i also decide to abandon myself what will i be.  i just dont want to feel anything . i want to get rid of these feelings for anyonei want to feel free unapologetically. i want to feel no hatred no love nothing for anyone. i wish i leave to the place where i can feel home because this place is not a home its a prison.i wish i leave for ever. i wish once i leave they neevr get to see me, NEVER !!