I wish I leave for good !! for ever !!

Currently,  my desire to leave this place and never return, ensuring she will never see me again. I feel overwhelmed by her presence, perhaps because this is no longer my home; it is merely my parents' house, and I feel like an unwelcome guest. I never anticipated experiencing such a sudden downfall in my life, losing everything and having to move in with them, only to face their judgment and endure her cruel taunts, even during my moments of illness. There is an emptiness in my chest that can only be filled by leaving this place for good. I have lost any affection for my family members and for anyone new who enters my life. I long to disappear as if I were never part of this household. I yearn for a place of peace, where I am not judged or manipulated, and where the intentions of those around me are genuine, just as I wish to be for them. I wish to leave so that I can feel loved, respected, and positive, allowing my innocent heart to flourish. This family feels like a burden, with every step I take in this house causing me emotional pain. I feel as though something is lodged in my throat, and my mind constantly brings up their negative comments, as if they are perpetually speaking ill of me. It feels as though my mother is dead to me; I cannot cope with the lingering negative energy that surrounds me. I sometimes hope that by leaving, they will recognize the pain they have caused me, but then I question what I would truly gain from that. Ultimately, I simply wish to depart for good. I do not want anything from this home; I do not want them to remember my birthday or think of me at all. I have been psychologically rejected by both my parents and have suffered emotional abuse, particularly from my mother during my most vulnerable moments. Their behavior has made me feel judged and as though I am a failure, as if I lack the ability to live independently. I hope for a change in my circumstances.

this family feels like nails under my feet every step i take in this house i bleed in my heart.  i wish my circumstances change and i dissappear from their life. i wish i forget about my mother forever the pain she has caused me i wish i end it with the relation with her. may be i will die aloe and noone wiill come to see me  but thats alright, atleast i will die with just myself may be. 

if i had the power to do so i will go back in time and murder myself in my mother's womb for good. so that she will neverhave to see me and i never had to see her.  i wish i never be born in the same womb nor in anyone's near her. NEVER !!!

I END MY RELATION WITH THE WOMEN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO ME JUST TO ABUSE ME PSYCHOLOGICALLY ALL MY LIFE.... I REJECT YOU TO BE MY MOTHER , SO BE IT !!!

you manipulated everyone against me in this house so i do not want to see your face ever again. you are extremely ugly inside where i dont want to live anymore. , may this relation end for never to established  again...from now onwards whether my mother has pain , sadness, sickness, its not going to affect me i dont want to care anymore thats how ruthless she made me! i just dont care anymore!!! i reject to be abused and manipulated ever again... SHE CAN GO FIND ANOTHER ME IF SHE EVER CAN !!!